The Worst Things You Can Imagine

The Worst Things You Can Imagine

This is just a factual account of events that transpired in June 2015 that changed my life forever. This is a sterile, emotionless, retelling. Some day I will be able to tell this story with all the feelings, all the tears, all the realizations of what June brought...
How I lost 100 pounds

How I lost 100 pounds

I lost one hundred pounds. Everyone wants to know how I did it. In my mind, “I” didn’t do it, my body did in a very organic and natural process. However, I will tell you exactly what happened and what I did. I moved to California. This is significant...
Acceptance

Acceptance

I am alone. Beached. Suffocating under the weight of my feelings. It is only within myself that I can find comfort… so I weep and keen into the waves of grief the deep bone sadness I am tired tired in my cells tired of the pain this human shell brings tired of...
patterns

patterns

MOST OF THE TIME  I walk a peaceful path. MOST OF THE TIME, I CAN  believe that my life means something MOST OF THE TIME, I DON’T EVEN REMEMBER  the hard times, the deaths, the pain, the tears MOST OF THE TIME, I THINK  life is glorious MOST OF THE TIME, I CAN’T EVEN...
the weight of wonder

the weight of wonder

Ten true thoughts about my body: My body and I are frenemies… one day we’re BFFs and the next we’re fighting. My body is pretty much Lindsay Lohan in Mean Girls.  Which is to say that sometimes she’s a bitch, and sometimes she is just fabulous....
her face

her face

Her face is open and wide, sprinkled with clever freckles that give her a wholesome, down-to-earth appeal.  Her full cheeks barely reveal the cheekbone structure too harsh for the softness of her lines. This is a face of flesh, contoured by years of living half-in...
mammography

mammography

my breasts made their appearance at the ripe age of 9 along with my period i proudly sported the first bra in my entire class my boobs rocked and then they grew and grew and grew in high school they were fabulous post-pubescent boys longing to touch them i just wanted...
Secrets I tell myself sometimes

Secrets I tell myself sometimes

Every once in a while, usually while walking, I’ll admit to myself that I like me. In fact, I think I’m pretty darned cool.  I’ll remember something clever I did and think, “Damn, your brain is a thing of beauty.” I laugh at my own jokes....
Naming my Children

Naming my Children

My firstborn: Julia Frances Young Morrow Lewis I name you Sunshine, because of the light you bring into my life every day. I name you Remarkable, because I am delighted and surprised by you every day. I name you Intuition, because you are so connected to the life we...